Friday Weigh In

No "!" today following my weigh in.  Today I was the same as last week, no loss.  Although...I posted the weight loss from Saturday last week because I wasn't happy with Friday's weigh in, so tomorrow I will weigh myself again and based on the results maybe it will become Saturday weigh ins and not Friday weigh ins.  I have used the word weight a lot in this post already and its not even that long.   Oh well.  Working on little sleep here after a late night and a VERY early morning with the little one.  So back to the topic....it was a challenging week of not making the best food choices.  I can feel myself slipping back into my old habits.  I haven't been logging my food for the day until the next day which causes me to forget stuff that I ate.  Wednesday was a rough day where I showed little self control.  I had a bunch of left over egg yolks from making an angle food cake from scratch.  I have a recipe for sugar cookies that uses only egg yolks, so I figured I would make up a big vat of that dough and freeze it.  Well, let me tell you...that is some mighty fine cookie dough to eat raw, I probably ate at least 5 cookies worth of dough.  I baked some to have for dessert that night, we had company over, so of course I tried some fresh out of the oven.  I felt very convicted that I had no self control.  I have also found this week that I am eating pretty large meals, and need to trim them back down.  I am using the Body Bug to help me monitor my calorie intake vs calorie burn, and I have learned that most days I am not burning a whole lot of calories while at home.  On busy cleaning days I burn a ton, or when we are out of the house running errands, but in my normal routine I am not burning as much as if I was still teaching.  Keeping that in mind, I need to eat less.  Although...I did have a calorie deficit every day this week, but then again, that is based on how well I kept my log which I have already admitted to not doing so well this week.  Another issue this week is I have been feeling very fatigued and not wanting to exercise, plus when I do exercise, the day after exercising my knees have been super sore.  Lots of excuses here, huh?  Maybe I should take some ibuprofen and just suck it up.

Mamma Told me There'd be Days Like This

It was another weekend of successes and failures.  This past weekend I thought I was doing well with food choices after attending a birthday party( I didn't eat any cookies or birthday cake!) and a girl's night out, but when I logged my calories consumed vs. calories burned, I had only a 300-400 deficit.  My goal is a 1000 deficit a day in order to lose 2 lbs a week.  The good news is, there was still a deficit, right?  A friend told me she heard some where that a 300 + or - deficit does not effect your weight, so even though I still have just over a 300 calorie deficit each day, I do not feel successful, but Friday is still 4 days away.  Sadly, I have absolutely no energy, motivation, or desire to exercise today.  I feel exhausted.  I stayed up really late Saturday night and my little alarm clock for a daughter doesn't allow any sleeping in.  I went to bed early Sunday night, but still feel so tired today....not to mention grumpy.  I am in just a miserable mood.

I guess what I really learned from this weekend is how much I really ate before I started logging my calories.  If I had attended this birthday party before feeling called to have some self discipline, I would have ate several of those yummy Oreo's, plus the birthday cake, plus several cups of soda.  My girls night out would have consisted of hot fudge on a huge dish of ice cream with a smoothy to wash it down.  In hindsight I am very proud of the choices I made this weekend.  I guess I was successful in that I had self discipline and didn't over indulge. 

Heavenly Father, please continue to give me wisdom and strength when it comes to what I crave.  Help me not to dwell on minor setbacks but begin anew each hour and minute of every day.